Sunday, September 28, 2008
I wrote a blardy long entry but it went **pppooooofff**
upset!
But anywootz...
In case you guys are wondering.
I am so so so fine now.
Well, at least I believe I am.
And I am just thankful for that.
Allah never lies.
Sure HE never does.
Everything that happens, sure happen for reason/s.
It's whether you know it sooner or later.
True enough what Han said...
Patience and Believe.
Hmph...
Han hunney... if you are reading this...
Thank you so so so very nice, darling.
Thank you for keep giving me the support and hope.
Thank you for bringing me into the group.
Meeting the oh so wonderful people.
I love you guys much much.
And of 'cos you guys know who you are,
The boifwren has been such a darling too.
But a pain in the butt at times.
Then again, it doesn't matter.
'cos he's not only making my life pretty,
he's attracting everybody in the house....
ouh.. and even my one and only kak yaney!
hahahaha
Anywootz, Asri finally get to meet some of us.
Like Royazmi, Shita, Syimz, Rehani, and Ismah...
After what it seems like almost 5 years...
woah!
Yet to meet the rest...
shaaa darlin', where are you???
huhuhuhu
ritez.. ive got lotsa things to do..
ciaoz!
I'm not as strong as I used to be, anymore.
Day by day, my heart sink.
Patience wearing thin.
My eyes stop blinking.
The ears stop listening.
Life is nothing, but a disaster.
Disaster.Disaster.Disaster.
I know, I cant give up.
I have to stay strong.
To all who has been tirelessly giving me support...
I thank y'all. really.
But plz be real patience wit me.
I'm crawling to learn to stand on both feet again.
Give me time.
After a week of eye-tearing.head-banging.puffy-swelling-face.
on and off fever.intense migraine.
I'm very sure now, i'm gonna pull this through.
I'm finally out of the company.
Not that it's a good thing or something to be proud of to call out for celebration.
But it's not a bad thing either.
I mean, if a person with such a critical or crucial problem @ home. Not attending work for days, with too many things at thought, which would you prioritize?
I was on the verge of losing my family one after another. Like, everyone's going their separate ways and leaving me in a whole load of nothing but pressure.
So, tell me which should I prioritize? Attending work and getting fucked-up again and again. Or being fired but at the end that one week of selfishness was all worth.
I mean, at least I did not hit second depression.
'cos that gonna sucks a lot.
Like Farhan said, take it as a good thing for as I didn't quit, but was sacked instead.
and true enough, i didnt feel bad about it.
Family is something nobody can replaced.
So before anyone, wanna talk about my attitude problem, get the bottom line of the story first. But even if you don't, I don't blardy care about what you think or speak about me.
On another contrary, the boifwren has been such a darlin, accompanying me day and night even if it means a short meet ups or via phone. and while one staying in JB and the other in S'pore, is not an issue.
And to the dearest sis, our condolence to the lost of beloved daddy.
May Allah loves him more, insyAllah. And may Arwah be put amongst the people HE loves. Ameen.
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